manss talking to wang jiao lian now. she is so funny. i miss those days when she was still our peilian and all. she is just like this older sister of ours. taking care of us, knowing everything about us, and always supporting us :D

she was literally the peilian that grew up with me. when i was 8/9 till 14. haha now that she is no longer my coach, haha she is like a sister and friend to me. :D sighsss really miss her, why cant she be my peilian :(

was talking about the past. then she said : nan dao ni xiang nian wu jiao lian? hahahaha joke. i would really rather much be under wu jiao lian and her, that period of time was so much better.

okay realised that im pretty lazy to continue blogging. another day thens :D
pangseh-ed kerry n marcus today for rj training. haha shit damn paiseh. coach called me cus he left a table n partner for me. ><

had a family weekend. shopping for clothes n stuffs :D my bro is as usual a idiot hahah. seriously i dont know why i have such siblings haha.

other than that, not much of a social life. haha met up with amanda n yiyun today though. :D though we only sat down and talk. but its amazing how after not seeing them for almost 1 whole year and having not much time tgt for 2 years, it still feels the same. :D seems like not long ago that i entered rg when i was a kid. and now their A's is over and im graduating.. we kinda grew up tgt didnt we? hehe. knew amanda since p3, yiyun n val since p4/5? wenyi n sarah since p4, only xiu i didnt know her. hahaha but ahh if only they are still in rj next year. meeting with the rest on fri. hehe bowling, wah i really suck at it luh.

haha gonna go shoppin n tennis with the noob sarah sooon! that idiot will organise. haha whole day trng piss me off only. and oh yea theres iz's musical on sat. hmm other than that i realise when i have no trng life seems so slowww. gonna go watch top 10 hahaha and laugh at all of them.

maybe i will consider going diving/sky diving(higher chances of dying) with you amanda! hahahaha how abt we take jetstar to hongkong luh. really damn bored alr haha hols seems so meaningless. even taking a cruise like val seems like a better idea than stayin in singapore hahaha.

i just rmbed that im goin malaysia with my family. cant rmb what date haha wadeva better than stayin in singapore :D gonna go back to watch my show. pretty tired despite the cup of coffee just now no idea why. heh

oh anw i think i experienced a really amazing feeling. :D i woke up feeling really awesome. :D

I don't care what they say about me
It's all right, it's all right
I don't care what they think about me
It's all right, they'll get it one day
its gonna be all right :D

sitting down alone and thinking about it, maybe i should respect her decision. thats what i can do as a friend. indeed that the team will need her, undeniably i would want her to be there for my own selfish reasons, and of course i was hoping that 3 of us can be together in the same team for the one last time.. but if it kills her to even think about it, then theres really no point.

i really know how it feels like to be forced and dumped into this stupid place to train all day. i know how it feels to dread going to training. and i know how it feels to force yourself to continue something that you have lost passion in, or maybe did not have any passion to start off in the first place. so then, it may be good to end it here.

so all the best buddy. i hope that what you have decided on will make you happier. and do pop by and visit us for training, or maybe help out to train with us before our finals, and of course be there for us to support us k. i know rjtt will never be the same without you, but at least i know your heart is with us. :D and the team acknowledges that of course. it may be a shit sport, something that i hate doing, left us with horrible (yet awesome) memories. but im pretty glad that the team is quite fun, since i have to stay on. love you still :D

havent we grown so much, from the small kid that started out(abt the same height as the table) till where we are today. no matter how much i hate it, i cant say that table tennis have left me with nothing. cus its not true. i made a whole grp of awesome friends and team, and i got into rgs(where i got to know all my friends) and who knows what will await in rj.

meeting up with afew of them yesterdae was pretty fun as well. mavis, look, althea, darren,kerry and bryan. haha pretty failed gathering but still good enough. :D prawning, lunch, tennis, starbucks and dinner. haha super tiring day. and stupid darren and the 2 kids keep irritating me for the whole of dinner. seriously, if only mavis or look was there to shut them up for me haha. then we talked abt all the trips that we went when we were young. hahaha concluded that most memorable ones are trips like shanghai n hebei. haha the shanghai one was epic. the guys thought that there was a ghost cus the china aunty quietly went to switch off their lights in the middle of the night to scare them since they werent asleep yet. haha and there was a night when the whole team had a orange fight haha i cant rmb how it started but yea. haha :D hebei was even better, slacked like crazy. got trashed by all the china dudes. hahaha and resting 2/3 days a beijing was just awesome. :D i rmbed we made michael wish nat happy birthday first. hehe
seems like our team have went through alot together. i dont think any other normal kids out there have memories like us. haha time to have a full gathering soon. :D with all that grew up together. no matter if they are still in stta or not.

got a break from todae till the rest returns from malaysia. haha dont know if its good or bad. but when they come back there will be top 10 :D hahahah sylvia darren n i have a plan. to go there and watch. and bet everyone will be like : eh how come yall nv play arh. hahaha irritating stta and their screwed up system.

so till then i shall slack ard. oh theres p6 gathering sooon :D how exciting. hehe forcing peixin to go with me. awesomeee havent seen them since sec 1 i think.

too many pple that i want to meet up with. :(

wahh today is extremely tiring day. woke up at 7.30 for rj training. and the hall is so hot! super not used to it and the tables are weird, the ball doesnt move. so i kinda had a hard time, really tired and trying to adapt. but i guess trainin was pretty productive with dylan since his strength is like crazy. the ball hit you maybe you might faint kinda strength. hahaha

then li coach asked the rj team to go cafe cartel for lunch. then we were like huh for what. and he seemed to have smth impt to say or smth. haha in the end he didnt even say anything n treated us AGAIN. i think its the 3rd time alr. so paiseh >< but it was pretty funny even though there werent really alot of us. lets see there was me, look, ben, dylan, benjamin ban, michael, jarrod, winston(?), zhaoqi and marcus. haha jialei and fai didnt come. :( kinda miss jialei. and my j2s! haha stupid pple dunno when then will see them. coach kept tryin to make us eat more. after ordering, he forced us to get a drink. then still wan us to get icecream n salad. hahaha siao one obviously we didnt order, will eat until we die.

then went vivo with look n aldrea to get stuffs. had BnJs :D, my MINITOONS SWEETS. i love it btw :D and she got sweets n all for huiping :D then went for school training. pretty funn haha i like being a peilian more than myself training. i think our c div is quite strong next year. hahaha rjtt girls is kinda screwed. but nvm, things will work out somehow i can feel it :D double champs ftw mans. right look look? :D

then met up with amanda n charm. hahaha i concluded that the world hates amanda. its really funny she got really pissed with me today cus i was so high n noisy and all. :D hehe btw by the time i reached the hall stupid charm trashed her opponent alr. so we didnt get to see her play!!! waste my time pangsai. haha nvm next time amanda n i hve a plan. :D yay

kinda tired after such a long day. left home at 7.30am and reached home at 930pm. :( haha shall watch my show and sleeeep. shall attept to train tml will try :D

this week have passed rather smoothly haha. nth really exciting happened and all but i guess its alright. :D forced myself to go for training, though not alot but 3 times is a improvement! hahaha have been like slacking my life off this whole year other than the 2 months of comps during june n july.
so after attempting to train properly n all. i end up aching all over :( ok not all over but yea aching haha. training isnt as easy anymore! :(

met up with sheryltan,amanda n sarahlai on fri. had dinner, watched new moon. :D those retards are still as funny n dumb as ever. sarahlai! our earrings shopping soooon :D havent exactly met up with the rest other than chingay prac that day. hahaha i have a terrible sunburn :( and despite how SLOW they go, its pretty tiring cus they just keep making us repeat n repeat.
think i will still turn up? see how first :D since i havent experienced chingay before in my life.

oh went prawning yesterdae haha. im pretty good!(i think? :D) though i dont eat prawns haha its pretty fun. my brother was really funny.

just went to cut my hair n had dinner with my bro. :D aww my brother waited for me, i took like abt 1h to cut my hair. stupid person taking his own sweet time haha i nearly fell asleep.

cant wait for their A's to officially end! :D i'm serious, i have the bestest seniors ever :D yiyun,amanda,val,sarah,wenyi and xiu :D awww is lunch on tues still on amanda? hehe. i think the best part of my secondary school life was when the team had them ard. was really fun and those are the only days when i looked forward to training. all the jokes, laughters and happiness. really crazy team when they were ard. even coach cant do anything to make them shut up. hahaha

gotta go back to watch my show. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL! awesomeee show :D im nv into korean shows. but this show is really nice :D love the cast. :D

wah training today is sooo tiring. haha regret goin man. went there first thing coach said was comps. i alr wanted to die. then every round my opponents were like ><
so it was pretty bad. lets see i played with ansel,clarence,kerry and oscar. haha pretty bad huh, considering how much im training now. haha this kids nowadays are unbeatable haha. ok ansel n oscar werent THAT bad, but the 2 in between, i kinda got owned. haha

and then we had to go runnin!!! that was really bad haha. to the old ah mahs like mavis, althea n i. it was really quite bad haha. after givin coach the "im really damn tired face, pls dont let me run so many rounds" haha coach decided to be nice and let us do only 2km, and stretch the time limit to abt 2.15 per round. hahaha and there he goes sayin how he can do one round in 55s in the past. hahah thats crazy, after i finished i wanted to die man. and now my knee is hurting :(
and im aching from duo qiu yesterdae which was really tiring thanks to shi shao. wah die, dont know if i still can continue trainin for the rest of the days haha.
shall go school trainin and slack one day. :D

life is pretty boring now. haha nth exciting happening. i was so agitated from watching this hongkong show just now. oh my tian the guy is SO irritating and pervertic. feel like killing him alr.

valval created qq hahahaha. this is so funny :D

everyone is going overseas and all. sighhhs lifes really boring now :( literally rotting at home man.

yesterday after talkin to afew of them on qq. gosh things have really changed alot. their coaches are gone, wangtengbo went over to another team. i really feel like if we dont see them any time soon, we will never get to see them again :(
so now im just prayin really hard that sylvia's mummy will allow us to go over to china. like asap :(

suddenly i feel like im so lost. what am i working towards, what are there in life that i shld be doing.. i guess this is what happens when u have too much time on hand? haha

:(